I feel like I’ve finally hit my stride this year in terms of figuring out what I want to do and where I’m going with my art, and I think it shows in how these most recent pieces have been turning out, and the speed at which I’ve been finishing them.
After University I had a real struggle with anxiety, depression, and identity. Even when I was living in Japan, on the most immersive adventure of my life, there were days it was hard to convince myself to get out of bed, let alone produce art. It was like the inspiration had been sapped from me. All of the ideas I had about who I was, and what I wanted to do with my life, just didn’t fit anymore. I was afraid that creativity might never come back.
There’s still a huge taboo around speaking about such things, and for artists especially there is a belief that we are supposed to struggle, that our art only turns out the way it does because of our struggle; the trope of the starving artist. But, the truth, for me anyway, is that producing good art is a whole lot easier when you’re happy, emotionally stable, and financially secure.
My life has evened out a lot since then, but it took me from then until now to really make a return to art; that’s almost eight years. At twelve, I thought I knew who I was and what I wanted to do with my life; I was a comic book artist. I spent more than a decade pushing myself hard toward that goal – self publishing, doing conventions, developing a brand and image, learning to sell myself and not just my art, getting a degree, submitting proposals for books – only to end up on a completely different path in my 30’s. But, this was not wasted effort; these are all valuable skills, and had I not been where I was, I wouldn’t have gotten to where I am now.
So, for anyone out there who is struggling to balance art, life, work, and all the difficulties that come with it, just know that you aren’t alone, and you can do it. None of us are just one thing, we are all multifaceted, ever changing, ever growing. There is no time limit on self discovery, and if you’re unhappy with where you are now, you still have time to reinvent yourself.
Anyhoo, that is about all I’ve got for this week. If you like this blog and want to help support it, consider buying me a coffee. Your support is greatly appreciated, and I hope that you check back again next week for more art, crafts, and creativity!